puasa

hmmm...puasa tahun ini,
Sama kayak tahun kemarin, tanpa canda tawa dan kehangatan keluarga.
Ini tahun kedua di mana aku menjalani ramadhan ini tanpa mereka. Biasa aja sih kalo sekarang, meski ada rasa kangennya  sama suasana puasa di kampung. Tapi aku udah terbiasa jauh dari mereka demi tanggung jawab yang harus ku pikul.
semoga di bulan puasa tahun ini aku menemukan Tuhan...
Sebab udah sekian lama aku jauh dariNya dan makin tersesat ke dalam jalan yang sama sekali tak ku inginkan ini.
Aku belum juga bisa menjadi manusia yang seutuhNya mengabdikan diri untuk tuhan semata
Tuhan aku mohon maafkan aku, dan kuatkan aku tuk menjalan semua niatan baikku ini.
Aku mohon kembalikan aku di jalanMu..
Itu saja, dan berikan aku kekuatan tuk menjadi hamba yang tak mengecewakanMu maupun orang lain
Amin

lirik lagu

Christina Perri

Jar of hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?